My uncle abused me.
I was 10 years old when it started.
At 13 he told me I was no longer wanted because I had started to develop.
At 16 I was ready to kill him.
Today, I’m broken.
Today, I only breathe to survive.
My name’s Sergeant Major Ryan Jenkins and today, I’m ready to tell you my story.
“Master would flog me if I did, she won’t be happy when I tell her what happened here.”
I startle awake as I leap off the bed and sprawl on the floor.
“Ry!” Mason yells from the other side of the door. I jump up off the floor and swing the bedroom door open.
“You scared the shit out of me, Mason.” I run my hand over my eyes and face trying to wake up. “What do you want, man?” But I’m met with silence. When I look over at Mase, he’s staring at my body. He’s mouth’s open and his eyes are so wide. He rakes his stare down my body, then back up again. He lifts an eyebrow as he ogles me. I look down and notice I’m completely naked. I fell asleep on my bed with just the towel wrapped around me and he scared me with his bashing that now I’m standing before him totally exposed.
He’s not moving away, and neither am I.
“Mason.” I lower my voice as he looks up at me and just stares.
He can see straight through me, totally bare and open, for him to see all my secrets.
“We need to leave in an hour,” Mase says as he takes a step closer to me.
I can feel his heat, and my body instantly reacts to him.
Don’t be a coward Ryan, just reach out and touch him.
His brown eyes turn from a hard brown into a molten chocolate as we stand a mere step apart from each other.
Our breathing is labored and rapid.
Mason reaches forward and brings his hand up to my chest, but before he touches me, his demeanor changes and he retracts it, dropping it beside his body.
“I can’t,” he whispers as he turns away from me and goes into his bedroom.
My head spins as I close my door and stand completely ashamed in my room.
He doesn’t want me.
Why would he?
Natalie’s 4 Star Review
I went into this book with a completely open mind knowing that it came with some serious warnings for distressing content, the blurb alone is heartbreaking. I advise that you listen to the warning and prepare yourself for some stomach churning moments but don’t for one minute let it stop you from reading this amazing book.
Ryan was sexually abused by his Uncle as a child and author Margaret McHeyzer did not hold back on her very realistic descriptions of the abuse. It was disturbing and sad and very difficult to read at times but because she was so open and honest about it you truly understood Ryan. It was like I was right there with him during his struggles. Suffering like he did does not come without consequences and poor Ryan is depressed, angry and confused about who he is and his sexuality. Living alone after a failed marriage he is basically at the end of his rope. When his best friend Mason comes to visit old feelings start to surface and Ryan is finding himself more and more attracted to Mason.
Mason, is a recovering addict and famous movie star but most importantly he is Ryan’s best friend. One a break from filming in Australia he returns home and invites Ryan out to a party where his “girlfriend/therapist” Stella will also be in attendance. When Ryan and Stella meet he is instantly attracted to her. Ryan now has feelings for both Mason and Stella, can you say sexual tension. He also comes to quickly realize that the relationship between Stella and Mason is anything but typical.
Stella is an accomplished pediatrician who also happens to be a domme. Her specialty is fixing broken men. I am a big fan of dominant women and Stella was no exception. She was strong and assertive but could also be tender and loving. I loved how the author handled this threesome. I never felt as if I was reading a love triangle (which you know I hate). They all fit together in a mature way without angst and unnecessary drama.
My only dislike or rather the area where I wanted just a bit more was actually with the relationship between Ryan and Stella. I got the whole D/s thing and that part I felt was completely appropriate to the characters. It was their relationship outside of the D/s role that I wish was more developed. I did love the ending of the book and the supporting characters were fantastic. Oh and the sex, I don’t think I will ever forget that sex, it was
panty melting, ugh! I hate that term. Let just say that the sex was some of the hottest I have read. M/M, M/M/F, M/F and F/F, it had it all.
Yes, Master was emotional, heartbreaking and ultimately beautiful. If you are up for the challenge of reading some very honest descriptions of child sexual abuse and redemption then you will find this book very gratifying.
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About the Author
I don’t do ‘normal’.
I’ve found that the more I write, the more I like being different to other authors. I write in first person, and I love to challenge a reader.
I take the normal and switch it around.
For me, I really enjoy getting a reaction from a reader. So if I can evoke an emotion (regardless of if it’s the emotion the reader wants) then I figure that I’ve done my job as an author I want to be.
I really quite revel in taking people out of their comfort zones and pushing them to read something different.
My genre of writing is, well quite frankly, where ever my mind goes. I won’t label myself because I don’t like sticking to one genre.
My goal with writing is just to take people away from whatever is going on in their lives, even if it’s only for a split second.
I’m a go with the flow sort of person and don’t really take a course of action to get where I am going. I live in the moment and don’t usually worry about tomorrow because whatever life is due to bring me, I’ll be happy to accept.
I love my family and friends and will help anyway I can if someone needs it. I really don’t like people that are nasty just because they can be, I don’t believe that’s necessary, I mean life’s hard enough as it is!
I hope you enjoy my books, I’ve had a hoot writing them. There’s more to come…..
Til next time.
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